I Find It Kind Of Funny, I Find It Kind Of Sad
What a weekend! (Again) I don't know what it is, but I eventhough I hate guys, I can't seem to live without them... but something to think through for me...I had a chat with my ex-boyfriend. He felt sorry for the way he had acted on the 2nd. October. It made me feel a lot better, but still I have the feeling things are not right between us. I just want a decent talk with him, especially now that we have to work together a lot on the PWS.
On Friday, my sister in law, Iris threw a party. She became 20 last week and she had invited me too to her birthday party. It was a lot of fun, but we all had a drink too much. And I found out that Iris found out the "history" between me and Tom. So I was kind of pissed at my brother, cause he had told her. But it was OK and she told me a lot too. I'm really starting to trust her, even more than my own sister.
Stupid thing I did that night was, that I sent John the texts that were supposed to go to Erik. And that I found out next morning...
On Saturday there was hockey. We became pool champion, yay! After that I had to leave to go to Isabel's birthday party. We had a great time. About 12 o'clock we went to the bar, to really celebrate it. The bar felt like a candyshop! It was filled with cute guys! But I didn't have candy that night. Yes, I was being a wise girl that night.
I did feel really bad about the look Jonathan, Frank's best friend, gave to me. I just didn't feel right. Maybe Frank didn't want me because of Jonathan? I don't know and I shouldn't care (anymore).
After a great time with Isabel at the bar we went home. Before I left the bar I saw John. "Was everything OK with you last night?" he asked, "cause you sent me the same text about 5 times..." Oops... "They were for Erik," I said. "Oh OK, cause I was getting worried." Ahw how cute of him.
And I know it's really really bad of me, but I really wanted John! As I was lying in my bed I thought about it. But how could I!? It's not that I have "feelings" for him, at least not love... I think it was just lust.
And it was. Cause the next day, when I was watching my brother's hockey game, Julian was the referee. And Julian is a guy I've always kind of liked. And as he was waving at me from the sideline, I melted.
I think I just need a guy again! How terrible am I!? Can't live with or without men!
posted by Fiona @ 1:50 PM
1 Comments:
I understand you, I so need a guy too. I was just too afraid to really put it out, 'cause most people think it's desperate behavior, it kinda is, but what the hell. Because I haven't got a man and everybody I know is so happy with their men, the jalousie I've got takes over and sees a potential boyfriend in anybody.
It's sick, it's desperate, but I need a guy, a good guy that really likes me.
You need the same sweety, but we can't force anyone, you just got to be lucky.
Good Luck
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