Me, Myself and the Boys

Hectic Hazards

Fuck! This weekend has not been a very good weekend for me. Well it started off well, but Saturday was pretty fucked up. Cause right now, I'm sort of trapped in a web of lies. I can't trust anyone, I've made promises I can't break, I have to lie to the ones I love and I have to rely on people I don't really trust. I'll tell you how it went...

Saturday September 9:
It's 11 am. Time to get up. I get ready for hockey. I have a match today. It's not gonna be very hard, cause we've beaten them before. As I got on the pitch, just standing there cause I'm the goalie, one goal by another went in. I was bored. Then a girl got a hockeystick in her face, broke her teeth and had to go to the hospital. It wasn't a pretty face... We won the match with 8-0.
After the match we went home immediately. At our own club my best friend and I stayed for a while. Today was the day: tonight she had a date with Jeroen, the guy from Crete. And she was totally nervous about it. But I would help her out, I would make reservations at the restaurant she had picked and made sure everything would go well. "Oh no" she said... "I have to work tonight!" "no worries, I'll call the manager, act like I'm your mom and call you sick." That's a great idea! Well it SOUNDED like a great idea, but it turned out bad...
As I called half way the manager said he didn't buy my story and I had to get Isabel on the phone, NOW! For this time the manager would give her the night off, but monday (today) she has to come over and she will probably get some trouble. So now she was even more nervous then she was, because she'd almost lost her job. But the rest of the evening would go well, I had made the reservations and everything would be alright... for her, not for me...

There was no0 time for me to take a shower, because of all this madness. I picked up my clothes and ran off to work. I work in the kitchen of a hotel and what happened. The dishwasher turned out on us. So me and Thijs had to do some of the dishes by hand. At the end of the evening we had to bake some bacon, well not some, a lot actually! But because of the burning grease there was a lot of smoke coming of the grill. So the fire alarm went off. And we had to warn all the hotel guests that it was a false alarm.
After that it was time to clean up the kitchen and have a couple of beers. That was fun, but not really smart of me, cause I didn't have dinner tonight, so alcohol hits you a lot faster.

When I got home, my friend called. She wanted me to meet her boyfriend. Of course I wanted to and I wanted to see her again, cause it had been ages! So as I got home, I quickly took a shower, got dressed and went to the Bar.
I got there and was looking for Sigrid, my friend. I couldn't find her, so I went to the balcony where you get a better view from the bar. I ran in to Erik, the brother of my sister in law. We danced and talked a little. After that I went to the corner to search for Sigrid, and there I found her. With a good-looking guy! It was her boyfriend, really one of the sweetest guys you can imagine AND good-looking! Just as yara I felt the happy for my friend, that she was so happy with her terrific boyfriend.
As the three of us were dancing and catching up, I saw John. John was the guy I was suppose to see on Friday to talk about the situation between him and Menno, but he said he couldn't make it. But now I saw him and said we still had to talk. I would come downstairs later on to see him. But first I was still having a great time with my friend.
Than Jasper came up. The guy I had kissed a week ago. Apparently he was still interested in me and we kissed again. As we got to talking more he told me he worked at the same restaurant Frank had worked. So he knew Frank! And right behind Jasper I saw John. "Thanks for the picture Fi!" He said. "There's someone who isn't going to be happy with this!" Of course he meant Frank. I don't know, but I don't want to blow my chances with Frank so I ran after John and begged him not to send it. "I was just kidding," he said, "of course I'm not going to send it" Thank God! Sigrid had to leave. So I siad goodbye and wanted to go too, but then I ran in to some of Frank's friends, who are really nice guys. So me and all those guys were talking all night. When it was 5 am it was time to go home, I lost my jacket, so it was pretty cold. But then John stopped me. "Wait! We still have to talk! Shall we go to my place?" It was 5 am, but ok I was really curious about what he had to say. So we went to his place. When we got there he said:"Do you mind if I take a shower?" We had been in a waterfight at the bar, so we were soked and were really cold. "No"I said. "Do you also want to take a shower?" I was really cold and he would put my clothes in the dry cleaner and could wear them again after the shower. "Good idea" "Well... are you going to undress or what?" His plan was to take a shower together and way to easy I said it was ok. I really enjoyed the shower, but hey, you're naked and you're standing very close to each other. So before I knew we were kissing. I was kissing John!!!
We got out of the shower and I told him it didn't feel right. He respected that and said: I'm willing to sleep on the couch." But ok we had kissed, sharing one bed wouldn't mind. Lying in the bed got us to talking. John confessed he did have a crush on Menno. But I think he wasn't really honest with me, he said he wasn't in love with him anymore, but I believe he still is.

Well that's how my Saturday went. I wanted to confess everything to Menno, but John asked me if I wouldn't tell Menno about it. And I promised I wouldn't. But I don't trust John and if he tells Menno, then Menno doesn't trust me anymore. To be honest I feel pretty fucked up...

posted by Fiona @ 6:49 AM