Just My Luck ?
I'm getting a little bit depressed. I have nothing to look forward to. School is the only thing keeping me up, but even that isn't positive. Everyone around me is finding his or her luck lately. Accept for me... of course...My dad has found a nice woman, so that's a new stepmom for me. She's amazing, she's a really nice person and I'm so happy to see my dad all happy again. So I probably couldn't wish for a better stepmom.
Then my brother: he won 1500 euros with the lotery!
My other brother is probably moving out, to live with his girlfriend. My sister just moved to Amsterdam and is completely happy now. My youngest brother has always been the most fantastic of the family.
My best friend, she has a date next Saturday with the first guy she met on Crete. She's totally in love and I'm really happy for her! But... what's left for me? Is there anything good reserved for me?
I know I shouldn't complain, there are people in worse situations. Like my best (male) friend. He's been grounded for ages now. And he has the worst stepmom you can imagine. So I really shouldn't complain. But I am... cause I'm a human being and I need things to live for.
Last night before I went to bed. I had to think about Frank. I was still waiting for that message. When my phone beeped, I ran up to it and opened up the message...
It was Menno, the best friend with the evil stepmom, he told me he was doing fine. Cause I'm always worried about him, so I was glad he sms'ed me. But still nothing from Frank...
I wasn't sleeping very well I kept turning around. And about 3:30 am, as I was turning around for like the 50th time, my phone beeped. I couldn't get much sleep so I went out of bed to check. My hope on Frank had almost gone, but then this came in:
Hey! I promised you a message. And about that night? I can't promise anything, but you'll never know ;) kiss
That's what he had sent. Was I happy now? Yes I was, because he kept his word. And no I wasn't because I'm not sure what to think of this message. So if there is one of you bloggers who does understand guys, please help me!
posted by Fiona @ 8:26 AM
1 Comments:
I so understand how you feel. It's that you have had a great night and got all your hopes up, it's a very dangerous situation. 'Cause your mood is kinda depending on what he's gonna send you. Like you know, I make the same mistake over and over, it's just really automatically.
What's left for you? I haven't got a clue, I'm still figuring that out for myself, it's not going that well. I even see that friends of mine with boyfriends I don't like to hang out that much anymore. I love the company of the unhappy single, they're more like me.
That everyone is having a life and all happy with it makes you want the same.
Good luck with it and remember that school will always get you through the hard times of feeling lost and lonely in a way.
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